Wednesday, May 25, 2016

May 25, 2016

Happy birthday to my mother-in-law Jan. I hope they're having a special party in heaven today.

Today is also kindergarten graduation for this handsome dude.
I'll add to the update after radiation and bloodwork.

Met with the chemo doc, a little thrush in Steve's mouth. His temp was elevated 2 degrees. His white blood cells are 7000. His other numbers are diving as well. We'll be extra super careful at home.

Here is a picture of Steve this morning. 



Thanks for checking on us. 

PS This just happened. I cut off enough to donate. A big thank you to Angela for dropping everything to go with me on very short notice. 

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

May 24, 2016

Down a little more weight this morning. :( Otherwise hanging in there. Thanks for checking on us. We appreciate all the angels in our lives.

Monday, May 23, 2016

May 23, 2016

The chemo bag is off and Steve is experiencing new side effects....but he has a little more energy. Yesterday evening we went for a walk. He's still losing weight and that concerns me. He's down 12.5 pounds since May 12th. Yikes. Hopefully he will feel like eating again soon.
This picture was taken last Friday....right before they disconnected his chemo. The shirt was a gift from the Jones Family.  

While he was at the clinic getting disconnected, they also gave him a bag of fluid because his blood pressure was still under 100 even though the home health nurse gave him fluids in Thursday. 

Saturday, May 21, 2016

May 21, 2016

The chemo pump is OFF!  Yay!  Steve has felt a little better today, but far from 100%.  He's experiencing a few more side effects, but overall managing well.  He still spent quite a bit of the day in bed, but not as much as the last few days.

Friday, May 20, 2016

May 20, 2016

Steve had 3 friends from work visit him this morning. It was so lovely for them to take the time to come. It was so good for him. He misses his friends.

Nausea has been about the same.  Caitlin is home from school with a horrible cough....sweet girl.

Thursday, May 19, 2016

May 19, 2016

Steve slept a lot yesterday and paid for it last night...he was awake much of the night. He is still fighting nausea, but so far the only other side effect is exhaustion. Steve has lost 9 pounds since 5/12/16. That is not good.

Sadly, all 4 of our children are coughing and struggling with various symptoms of feeling sick. That is really stressing me out because Steve's immune system is about to take a dive. Please pray for our childrens' health as well as Steve's. Next week is the last week of school....I'm sure the stress of fixing grades and thinking about Steve is a lot for them to handle.

Thanks for checking on us.

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

May 18, 2016

Nausea continues. The compazine helped yesterday....it totally knocked him out, but he felt a little better. Savanna came and gave him a liter of fluid and his B12 shot. He was down pretty much all day. He was nauseated in the night, too, but he said we finally got his pain under control.

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

*Picture Preview*

We had our photos taken Sunday afternoon by my amazing sister, Angela. Here are a few previews she sent me.



May 17, 2016 (morning)

Yesterday treatment started.  Steve felt a sense of dread. As for me.....Steve's pain has been so bad (back to morphine to doubling to tripling the dose all in less than 10 days), I feel like anything that might eventually make him feel better.....well let's do it.

We started at UVRMC for blood work, the steroid and both chemos. We met Megan and Jeremy. They were lovely people who lightened the mood and helped distract us. I asked if I could include them in my prayers.

We went straight from there to AF hospital for radiation. It was hard to drive past Cove Point in Provo. I missed my sweet grandmother who passed just a few short weeks ago.

Steve has a "walk-med"...a pump that looks shockingly like a Walkman. It will pump 2 tsp of 5FU per hour into Steve for 96 hours.

He started sweating profusely as soon as they started the chemo and he's had several bouts of hiccups which doesn't help at all with the underlying nausea.

Kenneth had his soccer banquet last night...he had a fantastic season.  Then Darrel came and helped me fix the toilet.  I had futzed with it for over an hour and he fixed it in about 15 minutes.  I really appreciated his assistance.  What would I do if I didn't have help?  I'd never make it....

Right now Steve is having radiation #2. Thanks for checking in on him.

Sunday, May 15, 2016

May 15, 2016

This has been a rough week. Steve's pain has been really high and the appointments he's had have really worn him out. Yesterday we had 3 soccer games and I worked on sprinkler repair in between games. Steve stayed in bed all day. It's uncomfortable for him to sit. We met some friends for dinner and it was so lovely, but he was really hurting by the time we got home.  I'm looking at pillows that might help him sit without so much pain.

Friday, May 13, 2016

May 13, 2016 (evening)

Steve spent most of the day after this morning's appointments in bed. His pain is not controlled very well. He is frustrated to be hurting so much. Keep the prayers coming....thank you.

May 13, 2016

Port-a-cath is in, and he's marked for radiation on Monday.  He has a power port...they can use it to draw blood, administer chemo, etc.  He's resting now in his bed.

Thursday, May 12, 2016

May 12, 2016 (evening)

We met Dr. Clark. He is the radiation oncologist. He was very kind and patient with us. He did another exam...which was quite painful for Steve. He said radiation will be 6 weeks, not 7. He said the tumor is 7-8 cm, not 2-3. He feels like there's a 75% chance chemo and radiation will cure Steve. (Without surgery) He thinks we should meet with a genetic counselor. We made an appt for June 15th.

After that appt, we had "chemo class" with Jayme in Dr Chipman's office. It was about 40 min of information that took an hour and 40 minutes. By the time we left, Steve was REALLY hurting. We learned a lot about the side effects he's likely going to experience, and it's a LONG list. It's a bit overwhelming. We have several prescriptions to pick up and a list of over the counter meds we need to have on hand as well.

Tomorrow at 7am is the portacath insertion, then at 9:30 he has a special CT scan and radiation prep (they'll mark him).  Chemo starts at noon on Monday in Provo, then radiation at 3:30 in American Fork.

Steve is sad tonight because he wanted to enjoy this week, but he's been hurting so much...he hasn't been able to do much.

I am sad because I don't want to watch him suffer any more. It's so hard. But we need to fight together....and we will....starting tomorrow. Tonight we are sad.

May 12, 2016 (morning)

Steve had another rough night (pain).  It was also eventful as our fire detectors went off two times...we ordered all new ones this morning.  The nurse came and gave Steve his last IV (hopefully).  He's scheduled at 7am tomorrow to get a port.  Thank you for your love and support...keep the prayers coming.

For those wondering what a port is....here you go.

port is a small disc made of plastic or metal about the size of a quarter that sits just under the skin. A soft thin tube called a catheter connects the port to a large vein. Your chemotherapy medicines are given through a special needle that fits right into the port. You also can have blood drawn through the port.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

May 11, 2016

Last night was better.  Steve still has pain on his left side.  I texted Dr. Kawa and he recommended Steve go to a liquid diet for a couple of days and see if that will help.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

May 10, 2016

We just met with Dr Chipman again. We have a new plan for pain management. We're going back to morphine. He feels like the pain on Steve's left side Is explained by inflammation in that area ( last they saw in the PET scan. )  Dr Chipman doesn't want Steve to take any ibuprofen during chemo.  The cancer has not spread any more than they originally thought.  That's great news. We have an appt with the radiation oncologist Thursday at 1pm, then we're going to have a "chemo class" with a nurse at 3pm. Steve is scheduled to get a port on Friday at 7am. Chemo and radiation start next Monday.
There is one difference in the chemo from what we originally understood...Steve will get both chemo drugs on the first day. The Miotycin C is just a quick push into the port....then the 5FU will get hooked up for 96 hours. So....the following Monday there will be no chemo.

Monday, May 09, 2016

May 9, 2016

I hope everyone had a lovely Mother's Day. I certainly did.

Steve's pain has increased over the past 2 days...quite significantly.  I had him take morphine again yesterday morning, and in the middle of the night, when he said his pain was a 9-10. The strange thing is that his left side is hurting again.  I'm not quite sure why, and neither is he.  It's very frustrating.  For now, I'm going to keep him on the heavier pain killer...it's so hard to watch him be in pain.

The PET scan was Friday; we still don't have results.  I'm hoping the doctor will call us, but since this is a new doctor for us, I really don't know what to expect.  We know we'll for sure find out on Thursday when we meet with the radiation oncologist, Dr. Clark.

Thursday, May 05, 2016

May 5, 2016

Steve was awfully tired today. He slept all morning and struggled through the afternoon. Tonight Caitlin performed with 7,000 other 5th grade students in a patriotic program down at BYU. It's 10:30 and we just got home. Steve is pooped. Tomorrow morning is the PET scan.

Wednesday, May 04, 2016

Details

Here are my notes from the appointment today...this doesn't let me format paragraphs, so forgive the formatting... Cancer formed with gland forming cells are adinocarcinomas. Lining cells are called squamous cells. Steve has squamous cell carcinoma. It is very rare. .25% of all rectal cancers. The Doc has never treated this particular cancer. He is reaching out to colleagues in various areas to make sure we get multiple opinions. We liked how thorough he was and he was very attentive. There are 3 things they use to stage rectal cancer...1) How far is it into the wall? Steve's is all the way through the wall, but not growing onto other things on the other side. That is T3. 2) Is it in the Lymph system at all? His is in 1 lymph node. That is N-1. 3) Has it metastasized? (Spread?) His has not. That is M-0. So, all together that makes him Stage 3a. The treatment will be simultaneous chemotherapy and radiation. The idea is that the chemo attacks the fast growing cells and makes them weaker...then when the radiation hits, they will be more likely to die.

 He'll have a PET scan on Friday morning at 8am. That will be for 2 reasons. 1) To confirm that the cancer hasn't spread and 2) to confirm the site of origin. There's a chance the cancer originated somewhere else and moved to the rectum.

 Next Thursday we will meet with Dr. Clark, who is the radiation oncologist. Then, likely on Friday they'll place a port (implantable IV) and the following Monday (May 16th), he'll start chemo and radiation.

They will use 2 different chemo drugs. The first one is 5FU (Appropriately named...short for Fluorouracil). That will be a 96 hour infusion...basically M-F. Then, the next Monday he'll get mitomycin C. Then on day 29 he'll get 5FU for another 96 hours, then on day 36 he'll get mitomycin C again. He'll get radiation every day M-F for 7 weeks. The radiation will be short, but will be quite exhausting for him. The chemotherapy kills cells that grow fast...those cells include hair (hair loss will result), lining of the mouth and gut (sores and nausea are potentials), bone marrow (his immune system will be repressed), and platelets (they'll watch for bleeding issues). The chemo will damage the cancer cells and also, since it will travel through his system, it will hopefully kill any traveling cells looking for another place to make home. 

We anticipate Steve continuing on long term disability. After the 7 weeks they will wait 12 weeks for a follow up PET scan and colonoscopy. He will then have annual colonoscopies for a while. The goal of avoiding surgery is to avoid a colostomy bag. We will wash our hands a lot and try to avoid germs wherever possible. Steve's hair will likely fall out during week 3. He's very sad about that. I would be, too.

 We had more angels come today...some came to fix our sprinklers and did a hole for a tree that I've been wishing for, one offered dinners every Monday until June, one took us up into the mountains to forget our worries for a while, and one brought us dinner. We did get some really fantastic news today...Caitlin made student council for next year. She is really super excited. She also had her first track meet ....which some angels took her to....and Kenneth played in a soccer game against Lehi and they tied. Daniel, Kenneth and I are preparing a beautiful rendition of "I Am a Child of God" for Mother's Day. Kenneth is accompanying Daniel and I playing our violins. It's been nice to rehearse each evening and feel the Spirit of the song. We are children of God, and we are grateful for our Heavenly Father who watches over and blesses us. We are glad to have some idea about the treatment and we are so grateful for good doctors. We've enjoyed having Pat & Nancy here, and we'll miss them when they leave in the morning. Steve gained 3 pounds at his weigh in today and it's all due to Nancy's wonderful cooking (and yummy cakes!). I've really enjoyed her fabulous hot chocolate and their company.

Update

Steve has a very rare form of cancer that is the same as a skin cancer squamous cell in the rectum (.25% of rectal cancers). He goes in for a PET scan on Friday and then appt with radiation doc and port insertion next week. Then begins 7 weeks of chemotherapy and radiation treatment starting May 16th. Hopefully he will be able to avoid surgery because radiation and chemotherapy usually kill this kind of cancer. More details to come....